So I turned 28 two weeks ago now, I did mean to write a post but it’s been kind of hectic.
This year has been awful. And I won’t lie in saying I’m glad 2012 is nearly over. There’s been a lot of good alhamdulillah (thanks be to god), but for the most part it’s been a challenging year. I feel like I’ve aged 10 years internally, and it must show on my face because I’ve been upgraded from looking 12 to 16. Wowee!
Seriously, anyone else have a young face and get annoyed that people still think you’re in high school? I mean it was fine when I was 18, 21 even. But 28? Come on! Not that I’m complaining, I’m happy people think I look younger than I am, as long as I don’t get ID’d!
However, I think I’ve learned a lot more about myself than I did previously. I also learned that when it comes to relationships, especially the romantic kind, I can’t compromise on what’s important to me. And I shouldn’t. I’ve also learned to listen to my gut feeling and that inner voice because it’s always right, no matter how often I don’t want it to be right, and the things that hurt the most are the best for me. I can only say that after reflecting, but in the moment it seems like the right thing to do, and if it doesn’t go my way then it won’t be good.
Lately, I’ve been thinking is this the career for me? I’m not really detail orientated, but I’m learning to be. In previous jobs, I was left to my own devices a lot and I got on with it. In this one, I feel unsure all the time, I can’t trust my own judgement sometimes that it makes me question whether I can stay for much longer. I think the day it starts to affect my physical or mental health is the day I should call it a day. It is tough and it’s going to get tougher, but I’m on the fence at the moment. That’s the good thing about being a temp, if the going gets rough you can leave without much notice. I don’t want to do that because I believe in sticking with things, but I’m not sure. We’ll see.
I don’t really have many updates in life to be honest. There’s nothing new and exciting happening. I read a lot on my Kindle and get as many free books as I can. I do miss the library, and there’s a few books not on the Kindle I can get from my library so that might be a thing.
How about you? What are you up to?
Muslima
Salaam!
Aww, sorry to hear you’ve had a tough year – but you’re so right in saying it’s helped you – I know it’s such a cliche but it takes pressure and time to turn coal into a diamond – just hope someone notices your sparkle soon so you can get married too inshaAllah!
We’re so close in age! My 28th is next week inshaAllah :0
Whatever tests are yet to come, hope you fly through them, and keep smiling! x
Humaira
Aw thank you! And Happy Birthday for next week!
Jina
I’m 33 and still suffer from Young Face Syndrome. It definitely has its good and bad points! But, like you say, I can’t complain. Well, maybe a little… like when someone actually treats me like a teenager. Makes for interesting stories to tell, I suppose
I’m so sorry to hear 2012 has been a bad year for you, Humaira
I sincerely hope 2013 brings significantly brighter times. The lesson learned in compromise is certainly a good one, especially if the things you have to compromise yourself on are intregral to your character.
There’s a quote someone shared with me many months ago, which I always refer back to when I’m looking for some kind of guidance; ‘Those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind’.
Humaira
Thanks for the lovely comment and quote Jina! I’ll keep that in mind when life gets interesting.
Jaina
Sorry to hear this year has been a bit of a rough one
I feel like I’m in the same boat as you. 2012 hasn’t been the best year for me in some aspects, but in others it’s been pretty amazing. Times like these make us who we are. Sounds like an incredibly cliched thing to say, and it is, but it’s true.
You know what? The minute you’re unhappy with your job and it is getting you down, just get out. I’ve been there and it’s just not good. At all. It’s just not worth it. I don’t think for one second you’d have a problem finding another job – you’re an intelligent woman! How could you not.
On the getting ID’d thing – I still get ID’d. I remember one time in Tesco I was ID’d because I was buying a bottle of gin. I didn’t have my ID, the checkout lady wasn’t sure, so she called her supervisor. Who was about SEVENTEEN!!! I was denied my booze by someone ten years younger than me. Incredible! Still, be happy about it. I still revel in the fact when people ask me how old I am and they’re shocked I’m as old as 28!
Humaira
Thanks for the support Jaina. I wish I could leave my job, but times are tough, and there’s not a lot up North for the field I’m in and at the level I’m at the moment. But you’re right, I think over the next year or so I need to re-evaluate whether this career is making me happy or not. And I don’t think I’m going to like the answer, but that’s a bridge I’ll cross when I come to it.
You do look really young though, I still think you only look about 21!
nadia
Assalamu Alaikum Humaira! I pray that Allah fill 2013 (and all the years that follow) with abundant blessings for you. May He save you from trials and tribulations, increase your imaan every single day, and provide you with what is best for you both in this dunya and in the akhirat. Ameen.
Cheer up and greet the new day with a smile!
*HUGS*
Humaira
Thanks Nadia and Ameen!