So I turned 28 two weeks ago now, I did mean to write a post but it’s been kind of hectic.
This year has been awful. And I won’t lie in saying I’m glad 2012 is nearly over. There’s been a lot of good alhamdulillah (thanks be to god), but for the most part it’s been a challenging year. I feel like I’ve aged 10 years internally, and it must show on my face because I’ve been upgraded from looking 12 to 16. Wowee!
Seriously, anyone else have a young face and get annoyed that people still think you’re in high school? I mean it was fine when I was 18, 21 even. But 28? Come on! Not that I’m complaining, I’m happy people think I look younger than I am, as long as I don’t get ID’d!
However, I think I’ve learned a lot more about myself than I did previously. I also learned that when it comes to relationships, especially the romantic kind, I can’t compromise on what’s important to me. And I shouldn’t. I’ve also learned to listen to my gut feeling and that inner voice because it’s always right, no matter how often I don’t want it to be right, and the things that hurt the most are the best for me. I can only say that after reflecting, but in the moment it seems like the right thing to do, and if it doesn’t go my way then it won’t be good.
Lately, I’ve been thinking is this the career for me? I’m not really detail orientated, but I’m learning to be. In previous jobs, I was left to my own devices a lot and I got on with it. In this one, I feel unsure all the time, I can’t trust my own judgement sometimes that it makes me question whether I can stay for much longer. I think the day it starts to affect my physical or mental health is the day I should call it a day. It is tough and it’s going to get tougher, but I’m on the fence at the moment. That’s the good thing about being a temp, if the going gets rough you can leave without much notice. I don’t want to do that because I believe in sticking with things, but I’m not sure. We’ll see.
I don’t really have many updates in life to be honest. There’s nothing new and exciting happening. I read a lot on my Kindle and get as many free books as I can. I do miss the library, and there’s a few books not on the Kindle I can get from my library so that might be a thing.
How about you? What are you up to?